Well, as I return to blog-ville, I try to muster up the courage and dignity to express what I feel right now. I have never actually been in a "real" fight, but the picture I've seen many times of the guy who has just got the crap kicked out of him and is in a fetal position fighting to get back up just to greet yet another swift kick to the ribs; yeah, that's me right now.
Since posting a blog about great success and wealth to come to me and declaring a bold statement about being a millionaire, it has been straight up Hell! I have gone two weeks without a paycheck, begged for food for myself and my children, pawned my favorite guitar(which is easily in the "Top 2 Most Depressing Moments in My Life", received a ridiculous electric bill and "borrowed" my nine year old's allowance that she has been saving for some time. Not to mention, my sister-in-law has been having to dish us $$ for gas and I just scrounged up enough change "laying around" to get some milk and bread for the kiddos.
What the Hell is going on? I don't mean to have to post an "R" rating on my blog, but come on. throw me a frickin' bone here! I mean, I know what's up and everything, how the devil works and how things work in the natural progression of life in certain circumstances. Unfortunately for me, though, that knowledge has no nutritional value.
Perseverance sucks hard sometimes; well, most of the time; okay, All the time!!! I can see the other side and I believe it and I am ready for it!! The valley between here and there is just tough sometimes you know? That's all right, though; I know that I'll get the Last Laugh! Will you laugh with me!
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Billy, my heart goes out to you! I have been in the same position you are in right now! I wish I could give you some magical words that make everything seem not so bad, but I don't. I know that you have a whole lotta people who would love to help in anyway (including me). I feel kinda weird just saying this much to you since we don't really have a relationship to speak of. I love you and your family! (not in a weird way)
I've been there. You will come out with the last laugh and never return. Every time seed is planted the enemy tries to uproot it. This is his lame attempt to uproot the vision God has put in you. You will live and not Die. Call me I got some work for you that will earn a fast pay check.
I want to laugh for you, but this makes me feel more like throwing up! The blessings that are coming to you will include a better guitar than your last one.
I'll not only laugh with you, I'll cry with you now and I'll commit to pray every day, my precious brother. No matter what it looks like - the future you see for yourself of goodness and greatness is the greater reality. I hold up your arms. xoxo
Billy,
My heart goes out to you! I know exactly what your saying. Billy, I will be praying for you daily!
I love your family, and believe God has only great things in store! I am expecting to hear about the miraculous breakthrough!
Then I will laugh with you, as you treat me a night of wining and dining! (LOL)
Hey- umm- neighbor. We are just down the street we are not rich yet, but whatever we have is yours. If you or your wife want to work Sat from 6- 11pm, we would be happy to have you. We usually have food and we would love to be here for you. Lets stand together. We all have huge destiny. I personally will not take this attack on your family sitting.
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